Friday, January 28, 2011

Fighting for inspiration

My body is numb and lifeless. I have hours of time that should be filled with productive creation but yet I sit here pondering and allowing myself to lay around in my own filth. I hate television, it kills the mind. I hate clutter, it hurts my soul. I hate perpetual clouds, they make me gloomy. I hate procrastination, its too easy to let it take over. I hate cats, they are all messy little fuckers. I hate messes, cleaning makes me angry. Maybe its the knowledge that I have this time that SHOULD be being used to my advantage that makes me so anxious. I can litterally feel the minutes ticking down, ticking down, I'm running out. It's paralyzing. Any minute Mila will be awake from her nap yet again and I will be full force adventure mommy with not even a second to do my own thing.

...... I hear crying now....

Ponies!

I've recently been re-infatuated with My Little Ponies (I loved them as a little girl).  I even threw an extremely pink pony party for Mila's 1st birthday earlier this month.

Here's a picture of the cake that I made for her in frantic mode the night of the party. I'm actually rather impressed by the way it turned out. Notice the pink jewels and diamond sprinkles.. that's just how I do.


I discovered an email earlier today from my good pal Brittany. She found an article on MSN http://www.today.msnbc.msn.com/id/3041413 CHECK OUT THESE amazing celebrity ponies! I am in freakin looove. They are all original artwork done by different artists. What a fabulous idea. You can actually purchase "blank" ponies from Hasbro toys. I am exceptionally excited about this idea. I want to make my own flavor of pony!!




Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Back to Red



Hair Hair Hair. I've been obsessing about a hair change for a bit now. I want a much more vibrant intense red. I was inspired by the following:











Now I need to find the right color hair dye and get this party started!

Monday, January 17, 2011

Summer Fantasies

MAN. Living in Seattle has some perks, but am I the only one who gets tired of the rain? The cold, mold, damp, ickiness? Its only January and I am having serious issues with the mushy, half rain-snow outside my window. So to make this day bearable, I'm fantasizing about this summer to come. 



 

Let me start off by explaining my current living situation. After leaving my job at the end of August last year to stay at home with Mila, we fell into some financial hardships. Having only one income made affording our East Bellevue apartment impossible. We moved in with Brian's sister who had 2 extra rooms waiting for us in her manufactured, mobile home community house. 

So it is what it is: To spare the fancy titles, we live in a trailer park in Auburn, WA. 
I'm making the best of this year anyway I can, broke, homeless (kinda) and trashy. I see pink flamingos steaked into our little back yard. A pink plastic lawn chair with my frilly bikini clad self sprawled out with a good book and vodka spiked lemonade. Ill have unnecessary amounts of jewels draping my neck and wrists. Only to make myself feel fancy as I sip with my pinky out. Mila will be the envy of all the other trailer park kids with the best of the best blow up kiddy pool/ water park that I can find. I will spare no expense. Pink flip flops, over-sized shades and huge billowy hats. Sequins and flowers in our hair (if Mila grows any by then!) Now if only I can find some AstroTurf and a vintage boom box. 

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Getting this thing started

A little over a year ago in the midst of my biggest art show to date, and a reunion show with my former band, I felt complete. I was at the highlight of my life, living productive and recklessly and loving every minute of it. I was spinning free in a drunken kind of bliss that is a euphoria that maybe only I can find the way to crave, and enjoy.  Life was full and intense. Just the way I like it to be.

Nine months later the love of my life, Mila Izabella was born. The kind of creative insanity that was previously my life stopped dead in its tracks. This is the story of me, a party girl who is determined to find a way to balance all the things I love. Follow my journey into rock and roll motherhood as I discover ways to bring the best of both worlds into one; to become one hot, amazing, fabulously insane, kickass mom.
I will keep a log of day to day things that keep me who I am. Whether it be art, food, fashion, music, events, or simply my thoughts and ideas of the moment. Enjoy, I tend to.